First things first. As you probably know the New Years Day Cold Finger Run was postponed because of bad weather not once but twice. On the second attempt the weather in Nassau was better than Suffolk. But with strong winds and afternoon snow in Suffolk there was no way I was going to put the lives of my fellow riders at risk. Some asked "why was it not held a week or two later?" There are several reasons. One being that there is a limited amount of on air time to promote and decimate information to the public. WBAB plans way in advance for events and promotions.

The later part of the year is always gearing up for the run on top of toy drives, holiday contests and the like. In addition we start to tease "Manuary" (a male based month long morning show promotion during January). So when the run gets postponed once we are prepared with a rain date but when it happens twice problems arise. Between Manuary, weekly contests and such we simply run out of room to effectively promote another event like the run. However we are committed to finding a way to help the children of the American Cancer Societies' Camp Adventure, the beneficiaries of the run, in the best possible way. We have already met with Camp reps and started working on different options. I have faith and believe something will happen sometime in February where the area motorcyclists as well as the community at large will be able to pitch in and send as many children to Camp as possible. I thank you for your support and patience. If you would like to learn more about Camp Adventure please vist wbab.com/fingers and watch "A Message From Fingers" Thank You...

Happy New Year! 2010 is upon us. A time for new beginnings and fresh starts. I hope that if you made a resolution you are able to stick to it with minimal frustration and that you conquer the challenge you have set for yourself. Generally this column is music based however I would like to share some things with you that are shall I say out of the box. So with that in mind please picture your favorite album playing in the background or pop on the radio (102.3 WBAB preferably) as you read this.

My New Years resolution is simply to survive. It is a challenging time for all of us. No matter the income or situation everyone is feeling the bite of the state of the economy. We all have things that we are grateful for as well as things we are fighting to keep like our jobs, homes, sanity etc. It can be very disconcerting to know you have a good job and a healthy family and always try to do the next right thing and yet you can be overwhelmed by a sense that you are fighting a never ending battle. What bills do I pay? Who gets bumped to next month? How long does this mortgage modification process take anyway? When will things start to level off? And thats just the stuff going on under our roofs. Now add in that this country is at odds with itself between health care, two wars, gay rights, political mudslinging, drug using athletes, and the list goes on. It's no wonder we wanna shut the door to just take care of our own and tell everyone else to fuck off.

But thats when we need to take a breath and refocus on the things that matter. Family, Friends and community as well as our selves. For me I know when I am in a foul mood it cascades down maybe not overtly but those who know us can tell when we are jammed up and out of sorts. This is when I need to sometimes be still, quiet and breath and maybe pray and other times find another healthy outlet to channel my feelings sometimes physically. When I pray I usually ask for the "vision" the ability to see the things I need to see no matter how clouded and murky daily life can sometimes be. Sometimes it is a strong directional message and others it is like God is winking at me.

For instance the other day I was feeling like the walls were closing in so I went to the bathroom to have a cigarette and just decompress for a few minutes. Nothing blazingly obvious happened to alert anyone where my head was at as a matter of fact I had just gotten home and I usually hit the head when I get in anyway. I remember feeling sad and fearful of losing my home because of rising costs and mounting debt (just for perspective yes I am a radio DJ but I am not Howard Stern) Anyway my thoughts and feeling were all over the map and I said God I don't know what to do or where to focus? I did not get an answer ...or did I? I finished my second cigarette took a deep breath wash my face with cold water and left the bathroom. As I opened the door I noticed on the floor right at the foot of the door neatly placed was a hand painted picture of me and my two daughters, a handful of plastic flowers wrapped in a bandana and a note that said Daddy I love you Love Julia (my 6 yr old). WINK! with a lump in my throat and a smile across my face I searched for her only to find her hiding so she could give me a "boo" I acted scared and knelt down and thanked her and hugged her till she said with a giggle "you're crushing me" That wink told me to focus on my children and their needs and in order to do that I need to take care of myself. I'm doing the best I can and strive to do better.

Even though we are a divorced family it is paramount to stress we are still a family and that we need to take care of ourselves and each other so we can care for others in the community. Our society has become so egocentric that the breakdown of family transcends into community and thus society. We are all different people experiencing similar things and if we can get past the BS we can truly make this time we have on this planet better for all of us. I don't really care about all my material possessions but I don't want to loose our house. But even if we did I know we will always have our family and no matter where we ended up we would make it home.

In closing I just want to acknowledge that almost everyday I am grateful for just waking up. Today I am grateful I didn't wake up in Haiti. Have a great day.